Confused About My Kinkiness

So I recently got out of a long-term relationship and have been exploring my sexuality more openly. It's not that I was repressed before, but now I feel like there are no strings attached and I can be more honest with myself about what turns me on. Lately, I've found myself really drawn to the idea of kink play, specifically things like light bondage and role-playing scenarios. I don't want this to sound too dramatic or anything, but there's been a part of me that feels almost childish when it comes to these desires. Like there are parts of my sexuality that I've kept locked away for so long because they were seen as taboo or wrong. Now that I'm free to explore them, I find myself wanting more control over the situations, being tied up, wearing blindfolds, and acting out roles where someone else is in charge. It's not just about the physical sensations either; there's a psychological element too. When I submit to someone or let them take control of the situation, it feels like a form of mental release. It’s as if by giving up that tiny bit of my independence and control, I'm freeing something deeper within me. But here's where things get tricky: I've always had a strong sense of self-respect and integrity. How do these new desires fit into who I am? Do they mean there are deep-seated issues I need to work through or is it just about embracing all aspects of my sexuality? I'm writing this not because I want advice, but more out of curiosity. Maybe talking it out will help me understand myself better.