Alone in My Office...

I never thought I'd be here... sitting at my desk, alone with the computer hum as the only company. It started a few weeks back when I began to realize there's this... other side of me that craves discipline and order. Something about feeling like a student again, getting scolded for doing something wrong, or not good enough. I've never acted on it, though... too scared. But tonight, as I closed my office door and turned out the lights except for one soft lamp... I almost let myself imagine what it would be like to have someone else in here with me... guiding me, teaching me again. It's a lonely thought, but maybe that's okay... for now.