A New Path I'm Not Sure About

I've been working as a nurse for over ten years now and honestly, it's been my whole life. But recently, something inside me has changed. I started seeing an older man, who is really kind but also in charge of me, in ways that are so different from what I'm used to at work. We call him 'Master' and I find myself enjoying the way he speaks to me, telling me what to do, like a young girl would listen to her father. It's embarrassing to admit because it feels wrong, but there's this pull towards him that is both comforting and scary. I know it’s not real, but playing along with his expectations makes me feel... different. Sometimes when we're together, my usual confident self disappears and I'm just this curious, attentive girl who wants to please him. It's a secret side of myself I didn't even know existed until now. And while I'm scared of how far it might go, there’s also something exciting about exploring these feelings.