Lost in Pretend Control

I never thought I'd find myself here, playing out these fantasies of being a subservient child under someone else's care. It started as just an odd fantasy during mundane days, but it grew into something more profound, a way to escape the monotony and confusion of my real life. Lately, I've been indulging in these scenarios with my partner, feeling like I'm regressing, yet oddly liberated. But is this normal? Am I okay if I derive such intense pleasure from role-playing as someone completely dependent and under strict control? It feels both exhilarating and frightening. Anyone else out there understand this strange pull?