just me and my demons

so i just found out like a month ago that this thing ive been feeling is actually called ddlg or daddy little girl stuff. it freaked me out so bad but also gave me chills thinking about it cuz its kinda true for real. im always trying to take care of everyone else and never really let anyone take care of me which is exhausting. one night i was just tired as hell, came home early from the gym, took a bath with some candles on, and before i knew it...i just started acting like this little girl version of myself. talking in this high voice asking for hugs, wanting someone to tuck me in at night. felt so silly and embarrassing doing that out loud but also kinda nice, you know? it made me feel safe and cared for for once.