Law School's Dark Secret

I’m a first-year law student, trying to navigate the challenges of academia and my personal life. Recently, I’ve found myself deeply involved in DDLG dynamics with my partner, an experience that feels both liberating and complex. We began by exploring light caregiver roles, but as time has passed, it's evolved into more intense physical scenarios, including simulated disciplinary actions that border on the realm of pain play. The emotional component is surprisingly profound; feeling vulnerable yet safe creates a unique bond between us. Physically, our sessions can be quite explicit and graphic, I’ll admit to cringing at some of my own behaviors when I reflect on them later. Despite this discomfort, something about pushing these boundaries has redefined how I approach intimacy. Does anyone else experience such intense shifts in their personal relationships? Is it common for others to find comfort or strength through these kinds of adult roleplays? Would love any insights from those who have walked a similar path.