...So Lost In Him...

I never thought I'd be into this kind of stuff...but lately, everything's been changing. I met someone older, and when he told me what he wanted from our dynamic...it just hit something inside me that no one else ever has before. We started with small things, like him making all my decisions for a while...even the big ones. It felt scary at first, but now it's comforting, like being taken care of again after so much independence. I feel...safe and loved in ways I never imagined possible. But sometimes when I'm alone, I get this weird mix of anxiety and yearning. Maybe I should tell him about my past fears? Would that scare him away or bring us closer? ...