new realization

i just figured out i have a thing for ddlg stuff but im scared to try it. like the idea of someone being really in charge and me being completely submissive gets me so hard but at work today when this older guy gave me some instructions, idk maybe cause hes my manager or somethin, i had these thoughts about kneeling and letting him take control. its weird bcoz im not even sure if its a sexual thing or just the power play stuff but it feels so real in my head. anyone ever feel like this? is this normal?