after the divorce thing

so yeah i got divorced last month and my ex was all into this dd/lg stuff but like she just wanted me to be her daddy for sex or something. it wasnt really serious for her but i kinda liked it when we were together. now shes gone and i miss being someones dad in that way but also feel weird about it. had a fantasy the other night of picking up this girl and taking care of her like she was my kid, just for fun. feels naughty and wrong even though i know its not. guess im still processing all of it.