When I Feels Lost Inside

I've been feeling so lost lately. Sometimes, when the world gets too big and scary, I slip into being a little, it's like a safe space from reality. But then there are times when I crave that other side of me, the caregiver part, where I take care of someone else and try to understand what they're going through. It's funny how one moment I can feel so small and in need of protection, but the next I'm the protector. The trouble is, lately, it feels like neither role fits quite right, there's a disconnect between who I want to be and who I am when I actually do these things. Tonight was supposed to be little time with my partner, but instead of feeling comforted by their care, I felt... lonely. Like no matter what, I'll always feel this void inside that can't be filled by any kind of play or role. Maybe it's just me overthinking everything again.