The Day I Crossed Over as Daddy

I've been in grad school for over a year now, and something changed around midterms. A friend of mine introduced me to the world of DDLG online, and it seemed like such an exciting, adult form of exploration. As someone who's always loved nurturing and supporting others, it felt natural to take on a Daddy role, even if I've never been married or had kids in real life. It started out slowly, watching videos, reading stories, getting involved in chat groups where I could offer advice and be seen as an authority figure. The more time I spent there, the more I wanted to try it out with someone in real life. So, I started posting on a local DDLG forum, putting myself out there. It wasn't long before I found someone interested, let's call her 'Lil Miss.' She was eager, sweet, and open about what she hoped to gain from the relationship. We met up for the first time at a cozy cafe near campus. I ordered us some coffee and we talked more about our boundaries and expectations. What happened next was unexpected. As we were talking, I noticed Lil Miss seemed nervous but also excited, so I took my role seriously. I made it clear that this wasn't just casual dating; there would be rules and a hierarchy to respect. When she nodded in agreement, her eyes brightening with anticipation, something shifted inside me. This felt real, I was truly taking on the role of Daddy. We exchanged numbers and set up our first official meeting at my place later that week. The night arrived, and as soon as she walked through the door looking so small and adorable in a sundress, I couldn't help but feel proud and protective all over again. We had dinner together and then it was time to establish the connection. She knelt before me, and for the first time, I gently disciplined her, nothing harsh or painful, just enough to remind her of our dynamic. It felt incredibly powerful. After that night, we continued to meet regularly, each session feeling more intense and satisfying. But here's where things got complicated, I found myself becoming obsessed with this role. My studies started to suffer as I spent countless hours preparing for our next meeting instead of working on my thesis or reading papers. Meanwhile, Lil Miss was blossoming under the guidance and structure I provided. The dilemma is clear: am I more devoted to being her Daddy than pursuing my academic goals? Or do I need to reassess whether this role has become too consuming? What do you think, I'm at a crossroads here. Should I continue down this path of full commitment as Daddy or try to scale it back and focus on grad school?