... Sometimes I Feel Like A Kid Again ...

I never imagined that being a military spouse would lead me to DDLG dynamics with my husband, but here we are. We've been together for years now and things have changed so much. He's always been the strong one, the one who knows what to do in every situation, whether it’s about moving halfway across the world or dealing with deployments... It feels odd sometimes because while I love being there for him and providing support, when we talk about these DDLG dynamics, I feel like a child again. He doesn't call himself Daddy or anything like that, he just takes on this role naturally during our moments together... Last week, we had an agreement... Well, it wasn’t really an official rule, more of an understanding. We were going to spend the day working in the garden and get everything ready for winter. But I got sidetracked watching TV, and by the time I realized what was happening, it was late evening and all that work still needed to be done... When he found out later, there was a moment of silence between us before he gave me a gentle lecture about responsibility and making good on my word. It felt strange, like when I was younger and made a mistake... I’ve been feeling guilty ever since then, knowing how much effort it takes him to plan for our life together... Sometimes it’s hard not to feel like a kid again in moments like this...