A Day in the Life...

Well, today was just another day. I woke up to my alarm, poured myself a cup of coffee... and then it hit me all over again. She called last night, you know? Said she needed guidance, needed direction... like a kid would from their dad. And, honestly, I kinda got off on it. It's not like we did anything explicit or out of the norm really, but the way she spoke to me, how she acted around me... It made me feel something deep down that's been missing for a while now. A connection, maybe? Intimacy in a different sense than usual... I tried telling her it was getting too much, too intense... but you know how hard it is to walk away from something that makes you feel alive again after feeling so numb for years? So here I am, still trying to figure out where the line should be drawn. It's not just about sex or powerplay anymore... there’s this layer of emotional stuff that gets tangled up in everything... Anyway, I’m rambling now... I know it doesn’t make sense and won’t help anyone else figure anything out either. Just needed to get some of this off my chest... maybe it will be clearer tomorrow when I wake up again without all the haze from last night still lingering in my mind...