confession about my kinks

i have this thing where i get really turned on by older women playing like im younger than them it feels so naughty and wrong but its not real like we both know im a grown man just into roleplay. one night at a party someone suggested a game of truth or dare which kinda led to me whispering to an older woman i met there about wanting to do this thing. she gave me this look that said yeah lets try it. so we went somewhere private and the second we started talking like that, i felt myself hardening in my pants right away. she told me to call her mama and just go along with whatever she wanted. it was so hot being submissive and feeling like a kid again but at the same time really shameful knowing its not normal or healthy. after a few times of this happening we stopped because i felt bad about how i was acting. still cant believe im telling you guys this though.