Exploring My Curiosity As A Mommy

So lately I've been diving into some roleplay stuff that's a bit outside my usual comfort zone. You know how sometimes you think back to your past and wonder what might have been different if things had gone another way? That kind of curiosity, but in the form of an adult relationship with someone much younger who appreciates me for more than just... well, the usual stuff. It started small enough, a coffee date that turned into something more playful. The next thing I knew, we were talking about these little moments and how they make you feel like you're stepping back in time, but really it's all new and different because everyone involved is a consenting adult. The conversations are fun and flirty, and there's this undercurrent of playfulness that's quite refreshing. But then I got to thinking... what if something went wrong? What if my curiosity gets the better of me? How far should I take it? There's something about being in control, but also feeling playful and maybe a bit mischievous. It's confusing sometimes because it doesn't really fit with who I am or how I've always seen myself. But then again, isn't that part of trying new things? So here’s where my mind starts to wander: Is this just about the thrill? Or is there something deeper going on here? What if these dynamics and roles are just a way for me to explore parts of myself I never knew existed? And what should I do next? Should I continue to tread cautiously or dive in headfirst? I guess that's why I'm here. Wondering, analyzing, and hoping someone out there might have some thoughts or advice to share about all this. Is it normal to be both excited and a little scared at the same time?