A Secret Play Session

I've been an artist my whole life, and never thought I'd find myself here - in a DD/lg dynamic with a stranger online. It started as a casual roleplay over text messages, but soon escalated into real-life encounters. Last night was our first time meeting in person, and the rush of intimacy mixed with discipline was overwhelming. He guided me through an intense scene that left me breathless and questioning everything I thought I knew about myself. It felt like I was breaking free from my usual constraints as an artist but also surrendering control to someone else's vision. I'm not sure where this is going, or even if I should continue it, but something inside me feels alive in a way I haven't experienced before.