A Hidden Secret

I never imagined myself here, confessing something so embarrassing. I'm a stay-at-home parent who cares deeply for my partner and child, but there's this hidden side to me that feels so wrong to admit. Sometimes, when we play, I take on a caregiver role with him and it turns into something darker. There’s this part of me that enjoys enforcing rules he breaks, punishments like being confined or denied treats until he behaves properly. It’s all make-believe, but the shame is real. I’m scared to tell anyone about these feelings, even my therapist.