...Sometimes I'm Little...

I don't know how to explain it, but there are days when I feel so small... like everything just overwhelms me and all I want is for someone to take care of me. It's silly really, because at my age (18+), I should be the one taking care of others right? But sometimes I love being a little, you know... That's not all though. There are also times when I just feel so strong and protective, like I could be this caregiver for someone else who needs guidance or support. It's strange how my feelings switch around. I remember once when I was feeling especially small, it was after a really tough day at work... and I went home and got into this mindset of being little, wanting to curl up in bed and just have someone look after me like they did back when life wasn't so heavy. Of course, no one is there but myself (18+) so I ended up sitting on my bed, trying to imagine what it would be like if everything was okay again... It's hard to describe, but there are days where this little mindset feels right and comforting... Other times though, when things aren't feeling as small, I find myself thinking about being that person who others can lean on. Someone who offers comfort or guidance in the same way others have done for me throughout my life. It's a weird balance really... sometimes wanting to be taken care of like a child (18+) and other times craving to be someone else's rock. Life is funny, isn't it? I don't know why I'm telling all this here today, but writing it down makes me feel a bit lighter. It's just nice to say out loud sometimes that there are days when you need to find your little self and other times where you want to be someone else's big... You know what I mean?...