Just Figuring It Out

I've been single for a few weeks now and trying out this little dynamic stuff. Honestly, I'm still not sure why it turns me on so much but there's something about being told what to do that just makes everything feel more intense. Last night, I ended up with someone older who was into it too. He was very hands-on, tying me up in his car and really going at it. It felt odd but electrifying to let go and be submissive like that. I'm still processing why I enjoyed it so much, maybe because it's a total departure from my usual self-control?