Trying to Figure It Out...

So I started this Daddy thing... and honestly, it's weird but kinda amazing. First time with someone was last week... she called me 'Daddy'... felt like a switch flipped in my head. The idea of being the one who takes care of her, makes decisions for us both... really turned me on. But why? Is it just power dynamics or something deeper? I mean, there's this sense of nurturing too... but how can you nurture someone when your instinct is to protect and lead them away from trouble? And then she says things like 'I trust Daddy'... it's intoxicating but also a heavy responsibility. It's confusing because I've always been very independent, never the type to want guidance. But here I am, giving it out now... maybe that’s why this feels so right? It makes sense in my head at least, like taking on a role traditionally reserved for others fits me somehow. And when we were... you know, intimate, it was intense. Telling her what to do, being the one to take control... yeah, she really enjoyed it too from the looks of things. She’s thirty by the way. Anyway, I'm still trying to figure out if this is just a phase or something more permanent. I know there's nothing wrong with exploring different roles but there’s also part of me that feels like this fits perfectly... kind of strange, isn't it? Maybe that’s what makes it so interesting though, this mix of uncertainty and excitement. Thoughts anyone?...