Just Figuring It Out

So, I recently started exploring this whole DDLG thing with my partner. I've been reading a lot online and watching videos to get an idea of what it's all about. We just had our first session last night. My mind was racing the entire time, I mean, there’s so much going on emotionally that it feels like I’m back in college again trying to balance everything. The setup felt strange at first, but my partner made sure we were both comfortable with every step. It wasn’t graphic or anything, but there was this emotional intensity that made me feel all sorts of things, longing, wanting to please, and a little scared too. It’s like I’m stepping into this whole new world of intimacy and power dynamics, and it’s overwhelming in the best way possible. I keep thinking about how my college years felt when everything was new and exciting but scary at the same time. But now that I'm older, I guess you could say there's a different kind of excitement here, something deeper and more complex. Thinking back on all this makes me realize just how much I have to learn still. Still figuring it out.