figuring this shit out

so yea i recently started getting into dd/lg stuff and its been a real eye opener to say the least. it all kinda started when my sister brought home her new bf, who was all into this roleplay stuff, so they let me watch some of their sessions one night after she promised they were safe and consensual. idk, seeing her like that just did something to me, but i knew i had to keep it on the DL cos there's a lot of judgment out there about stuff like this. anyway, long story short, i decided to give it a shot with my partner who knows i struggle w being vulnerable and all. turns out she really liked it too and we've been experimenting more since then. but now im kinda at the point where i dont know if im the asshole for even thinking about this kind of stuff in the first place or just insecure because its so different from what i thought i'd be into when i grew up. its frustrating bc i want to be open and honest w her, but also worried itll make me seem like some weirdo. feels kinda lonely tbh since its hard to talk abt this kind of stuff with friends or family. and dont get me started on the internet where everyone thinks they know everything. so yeah, just needed to write this out i guess.