confessions of a closeted kinkster

hey guys so i kinda have this thing about being controlled but not like fully submissively or anything its just that when im with someone and theyre in charge it turns me on big time you know like if they tell me what to wear or where to go or even little stuff like how to sit and hold my glass at dinner and yeah i feel really weird talking about this cause i dont really do this in rl but the idea of being under control is just so sexy for me im kinda scared to bring it up with anyone because i dont know if its normal or healthy or just a phase you know and i dont want anyone thinking im crazy