The Realization of My Inner Child

So here I am, finally admitting to myself that this whole DDLG thing isn't just some quirky hobby but a serious kink. I mean, who knew grad school would teach me more about my own inner child than the theory of relativity? It's bizarre how something so abstract can feel so concrete when it comes to your personal life. Now I find myself slipping into scenarios where I need that guidance, that nurturing, from someone far more experienced, someone who can act as both teacher and protector in a way no textbook ever could. But here's the thing: am I just trying too hard to relive some childhood fantasy or is this genuinely about growth through submission? And if it’s the latter, how do I navigate that without losing sight of my adult self? Anyone else out there feel like they've found a way to balance these conflicting desires?