Caregiving Dynamics

I've been exploring this dynamic with my partner where I take on the role of his caregiver. It's fascinating how much it shifts our power dynamics. I find myself initiating more intimate care activities, like tending to him when he's ill or just needing attention. The physical aspect is incredibly intense, we're both very explicit and graphic in our desires. I enjoy dictating the pace and being the one who guides us towards satisfaction. It feels almost clinical at times, but there's an undeniable emotional charge to it. Why do I find this so compelling? Is it control, intimacy, or something else entirely?