finally admitting

i just realized i've been into this for a while now but i never admitted it to myself or anyone. it started with some light roleplay stuff online and kinda went from there. i guess deep down i always had this need for guidance, even if only pretend. the emotional part is weird, feeling like someone's looking after you again when all these years ive been taking care of myself. its intense but also scary af. what do yall think about this? has anyone else felt similar? let me know in the comments :)