feeling lost

i started this daddy thing cause i felt so alone, u know? like nobody gets me. but the more i got into it, the deeper i felt trapped in this persona, ya feel? i mean, its fun for her, my littlie, but man... sitting here now, all i see is how far from real i am, and i dont even know if im trying to connect with anyone or just fill a hole inside me. its hard to be strong when u rnt sure ur own reason why.