My Secret Shame

I never thought I'd end up here, confessing something so personal and private. It all started when I was in my early twenties, after a breakup that left me feeling lost and vulnerable. Seeking comfort and guidance, I turned to the world of DDLG/kink communities online. To my surprise, there were spaces for people like me, adults exploring unconventional relationships as a way to heal and grow. One relationship blossomed where I took on the role of Mommy to someone younger than me. It was intense, emotional, and filled with moments that felt both incredibly nurturing and deeply sensual. The thought of it still embarrasses me; I'm not sure if anyone else feels this way or if there's something seriously wrong with me. Am I just overthinking everything? Is it common for others in my position to struggle with these feelings? I need some advice, a different perspective, anything that can help me understand myself better.