getting lost in the roleplay

hey so i've been really into this thing where i get all wrapped up in being a lil for my guy at home. it's weird cus like one sec we're just chillin, talking about work or whatever and then out of nowhere he'll say let's play and i'm suddenly back in my room as this shy kid again. the thing is, yeah, i know its all pretend but man, the way he takes charge with me like that gets me super wet fast. he has rules and stuff for me to follow, which is kinda funny cus im 27, totally capable of making decisions on my own but when hes in control i feel so much lighter, like i dont have to think about anything at all. the most intense part though? When hes disciplining me, its not because hes angry or something, he does it as a way of showing how important and cherished im supposed to be. weird right? that hitting and spanking can be sexy and comforting but yeah, my body just reacts to it. i dont know if this is something i'll keep up forever, but for now its nice to have this space where all the usual adult stuff fades away and i get to act out these fantasies with someone who understands.