Small Sin of Obedience

Today was a weird day. I woke up and decided to play little for my caregiver partner, knowing full well the rules were strict about chores before fun. But something just felt off, like I couldn't muster the motivation to start them. So instead, I sat in the sunshine reading a book and drinking coffee until she came looking for me. She gave me this look, one that said 'didn’t you know better?', and then it was all about consequences. We talked through why I broke my promise to myself, but even as we discussed it, I felt this odd mixture of shame and excitement. Sometimes breaking a little rule is just what's needed to remind us why the rules are there in the first place.