Hidden Desire

I can barely bring myself to write this down, but it feels like I need to get it out in the open somehow. I've been struggling with my identity and desires for a long time now. A few months ago, I found myself drawn into an age-play dynamic with someone older. They saw potential in me that I couldn't see for myself at the time. We agreed on boundaries and everything was consensual, but there's this lingering shame attached to it. It felt like something was unlocked within me, a side of myself that had been suppressed for so long. Looking back now, I can appreciate how freeing it was in some ways, yet it still feels wrong to admit out loud.