Why Can't I Stop?

I'm 23 and only recently realized that I have this kink. It started a couple of months ago when my partner and I were playing around with some new things in our relationship. We decided to try out age play, where I acted like I was younger than I am, and she played the role of an authority figure who would discipline me for misbehaving. At first, it felt weird but exciting. The more we did it, the less weird it became, and the more excited I got. But here's what's confusing to me: why do I like this so much? It feels like a release of some sort, almost cathartic. When she's in charge and calling out my misdeeds with a stern voice, something inside me just relaxes. The physical sensations don't hurt or anything, they're more about being controlled, which turns me on in ways I didn't think possible. I've never been one for strict discipline in real life; if anything, I tend to be rebellious and prefer setting my own boundaries. Yet, with this role-play scenario, it's like all those frustrations disappear when she's the one deciding how things should go. Does that make me a masochist? Maybe. But there’s also something else going on here, an underlying desire for someone to take care of me, even if it's in a playful and consensual way. It might sound silly or immature, but it feels right somehow. I just can't figure out why exactly. So now I'm here, trying to understand my newfound kink better. Is there something deeper than just wanting control taken away from me? Or is this all about the thrill of role-play and discipline? And what does it say about me if I enjoy being told off in a way that feels very adult yet has undertones of childhood playfulness?