new to this stuff

so yeah i just ended a longterm relationship and decided to try out ddlg type stuff. thought it would be like the movies or something but turns out its way more awkward than sexy at first. met someone online, both in our twenties, and went over to their place one night. they had all this setup which was kinda surprising bc i figured ppl just do this on a whim. anyways we started playing around, me pretending to be like 18+ or something youngish but not super specific about age. it felt weird at first but also kinda exciting, i gotta admit. the guidance aspect of it made me feel cared for in a way my ex never did. overall its still confusing but less terrifying than i expected.