Confession of a New Discovery

I've been dating Alex for six months now, and we have a pretty solid relationship. We're both in our 20s, nonbinary, and have similar interests, hiking, movies, trying out new foods, you know the usual stuff. But recently I've stumbled upon something that's making me question everything I thought about myself before this. We hit a rough patch last month over differing views on long-term plans. It wasn't anything serious, but we needed to cool off for a bit and take some space from each other. During this time, I started exploring online kink communities out of curiosity more than anything else. One night while browsing through forums and subreddits, something caught my eye: age-play roleplay scenarios. At first, I brushed it off as just another weird fetish that didn't appeal to me at all. But over the next few weeks, I found myself reading more about it. Articles on negotiation, consent, power dynamics between adults in a consensual setting. There's this one scenario that stuck with me, the idea of being treated like someone younger, maybe around 16 or 17 (18+). The thought of exploring such fantasies felt both frightening and strangely appealing at the same time. Last week, as Alex and I started re-connecting after our break, we talked about trying to spice up things in bed. That's when it dawned on me: what if I shared this newfound interest with her? What if she was interested too? The idea of us stepping into adult roleplay scenarios, exploring that dynamic, was something that made my heart race. So here I am, writing this down as a way to process everything. Am I the asshole for keeping this secret and potentially not knowing how Alex would react? Or is it just an honest exploration of self-discovery in our relationship? It's confusing, but honestly, the thrill of possibly sharing something like this with someone else feels incredibly liberating.