Just Found My Secret Kink

I never imagined myself here. It started last week when I was caring for an elderly patient who couldn't move much on her own. We were in the room alone, and she asked me to help with something private. As I helped her, I felt a strange pull - not towards inappropriate behavior, but an unexpected surge of wanting to take care of her like a parent would their child. I didn't know what to make of it at first. It's embarrassing to say, but the idea of being needed that way... it was exhilarating and terrifying all at once. She seemed happy with my help too, so there was no harm done. But this feeling lingered inside me for days after, making me question everything I thought about myself. Only recently did I realize I might be into some kind of nurse-patient play scenario. It's strange because in real life, patients are just that - patients. The idea of stepping into a role like that on my own terms... it feels both wrong and right. Right now, I'm more scared than anything else.