My Secret Shame

I've been taking care of my partner in an unusual way lately. They're a software engineer like me, but we have this arrangement where I'm more the caregiver and they are completely submissive to me in every aspect, clothing choices, going out in public, even how they spend their workday online. It started as a casual power exchange over coffee, and now it's an integral part of our relationship. It began when we were both stressed about a big project at work. I suggested that maybe if they let me handle more details of their life for a while, it would help them focus better. They agreed tentatively but soon found the arrangement comforting and liberating. Now, every morning before they start coding, I put together a list of tasks for them to follow strictly throughout the day. This includes everything from when to take breaks to what snacks are allowed. The most intense part is how intimate we've made it: there's no room for their personal choice in the bedroom either. Even there, every action and position has been dictated by me, down to specific positions and even toys they can use. It’s like a whole new world opened up for them, one where I'm the absolute authority on everything about their life. But the worst part is how this dynamic has shifted in my own head, I find myself thinking about how much control I could have over every aspect of someone else's life if they allowed it. It’s a dark secret that terrifies me but also excites me in ways I never thought possible.