The Professor's Secret Admirer...

So I'm this first-year law student, trying to keep up with all the reading and lectures. And there’s this professor, Dr. Smith... he's in his early forties or something like that. He’s really smart and kind of a looker too if you know what I mean. Anyway, I’ve got this weird thing for him, where I want him to think I’m someone else entirely, younger somehow, even though I'm 18+. It’s not DDLG exactly... it's just that role-playing as something different in my mind makes me feel all tingly and stuff when we have class. Like, I can barely concentrate on his lectures sometimes because I imagine him giving me some special attention or whatever... So one day after class, he asks if I want to stay back for a bit... and yeah, that's the kind of thing you dream about right? Anyway, it turns out he just wanted to talk about my future career in law, but honestly at first, I thought maybe we were gonna go somewhere else entirely. It was such an anti-climax when all we did was discuss textbooks and case studies. He’s so professional too... I wish sometimes that I could just tell him how I feel, or show him the side of me that gets turned on by thinking about us in a different way... But it's hard to explain something like this without sounding crazy or creepy... So here I am, just typing out these thoughts and hoping maybe someone understands what it’s like to have this kind of crush from afar. It feels weird to admit how much my fantasies can get away from reality sometimes though... And yes, there was a time when I almost acted on the idea but stopped myself in time, it's not that I didn't want to, just that it felt wrong somehow... Anyway, I guess I’m done for now. Hope you found this interesting or something... maybe you can relate? It’s nice being able to share something so personal without worrying about judgment or anything like that.