Emotional Release Through Kink

I'm a nurse in my 30s, and for as long as I can remember, I've had an interest in kink that's been hard to express. With patients counting on me every day, the idea of letting go feels so foreign. But tonight, I found myself with this woman who understands. We started slow, teasing each other, but it was when she took control that everything shifted. The way she looked at me, those eyes filled with a kind of power and confidence I rarely see in my daily life, made me feel like... well, something more than just the responsible nurse I am. It's as if all these years of being the caretaker allowed someone else to take care of me for once. It felt incredibly freeing but also a bit scary. Like I was walking on thin ice, unsure whether what we were doing was crossing lines or simply exploring something beautiful and new. Afterward, lying in bed with her, all I could think about was how out-of-place this whole experience made me feel, yet how much it needed to happen. Is this normal? Should I talk to someone about these feelings of vulnerability mixed with desire? It’s hard to tell if I’m just overthinking everything or if there's something deeper here that needs addressing.