A Shy Secret

I've always struggled with expressing myself openly, but there's something I feel compelled to confess. A while ago, I found myself drawn into a DDLG relationship where I took on the role of a little girl for my partner. It was a way to escape and find comfort in being cared for, but it also brought out parts of me that felt deeply shameful. We would spend hours playing with toys and having tea like we were kids again, which felt incredibly freeing yet isolating at the same time. I worry about how others would judge me if they knew this secret part of my life where I step back into a childlike state for release. The idea of being seen as anything less than mature terrifies me, but it's such a profound escape that I keep returning to it.