A Hidden Desire

I've only recently come to terms with this... kink, if you can call it that. It's been buried deep inside me for years now, hidden from everyone, myself included. Lately though, I've found myself daydreaming about being a little again... not in the sense of my childhood, but as an adult choosing to play out that role with someone who takes on the protector and caregiver persona. It's overwhelming sometimes, this mix of shame and excitement... fear and desire all tangled up together. Admitting it here feels like a first step towards understanding myself better... or maybe just sinking deeper into confusion. Either way, I needed to say something.