A Hidden Secret Shame

I'm a nurse in my 30s and I've been secretly into DDLG. It's not like the childish fantasies you might think; it's much more adult, but there's this need to nurture and be nurturing that comes out when I'm with someone who lets me take on this role as their Mommy. The other night, after a long shift at work, we had one of our sessions in my apartment, and things got heated. We explored some boundaries I never thought I'd cross, like role-playing scenarios where I'm the authority figure. It was exhilarating and terrifying all at once. I feel so ashamed admitting this to myself let alone anyone else.