new at this

hey i started exploring ddlg stuff recently and it's been a big surprise to me. i'm in my thirties, married with kids, never thought about anything like this before but here we are. the emotional stuff is tough, feeling so vulnerable and exposed scares the hell out of me sometimes but also feels really good in ways i didn't know existed. last night was kinda rough - had an argument where she took on the role and i ended up getting spanked for being stubborn. it hurt like crazy at first but then... wow, something clicked inside me that felt amazing. we talked about it a lot afterwards though, making sure everything's cool between us. still figuring all this out together one step at a time.