A Hidden Sin

I've always been drawn to the thrill of power exchange, even if it's just a fleeting thought or fantasy. Recently, I found myself in an unexpected situation where I experimented with a friend who understood my desires but isn't as invested as I am. We agreed on boundaries, and everything was consensual, but afterward, I felt a mix of shame and relief. It's something I never would have imagined doing until it happened. Now, I can barely admit to myself that this part of me exists, let alone share it with anyone else.