Confession of a Newcomer in DDLG Exploration

I'm an introverted software engineer, usually more comfortable behind my keyboard than engaging in social interactions. My curiosity and interest in Dominance and Submission dynamics have been a constant source of both fascination and discomfort for me. I started exploring the concept online through various forums but always felt like I was missing something crucial, that thing you only get when you truly experience it with another person. A few months ago, after much contemplation and research, I decided to take a leap into the world of Dominant/Devotee Little for Big (DDLG) dynamics. I met someone online through a kink-friendly community forum who shared my interest in DDLG play. We exchanged messages detailing our desires and boundaries until we felt comfortable enough to meet up. Our first session was scheduled at his place, which he has specifically set up for this kind of roleplay. He's older than me, in his late thirties while I'm in my twenties, but age isn't a big factor for either of us; it’s all about shared interests and mutual respect. I arrived feeling both nervous yet exhilarated, wearing simple clothes that still allowed him to maintain control over the situation. The moment he opened the door, his demeanor was calm yet commanding. We exchanged pleasantries briefly before moving into the playroom setup within his apartment. The session started with some gentle guidance and playful challenges from him on how I should behave, like being told not to use my phone or watch during our time together unless asked to do so by him, treating it more as a form of mindfulness rather than punishment. He showed me various toys and props he uses in his roleplay scenarios but ensured that every choice was made with my comfort and consent in mind. One highlight of the session for me was when we engaged in age-play dynamics where I assumed a little space mentality, even though it was clear to both of us that this was purely consensual adult play. This allowed him to take on the role of an authoritative figure who cares deeply about my well-being and growth within our dynamic. Reflecting back on it now, despite initial nerves, the experience was incredibly enriching and enlightening. I felt a sense of freedom and safety in exploring these desires that had been tucked away for years. It's an aspect of myself I’m still learning to embrace fully, but I’m glad I’ve taken steps towards understanding my kinks better.