My Secret Kink Revealed Myself

I never thought I'd be here, confessing something like this. It started a few weeks ago when my boyfriend and I were talking about our sexual boundaries and fantasies. He asked me to share what I wanted, and I froze up. There was this one thing that had been bothering me for years, but I never dared to bring it up. I've always had this secret kink, I want to be punished. Not in a cruel or abusive way, but more like... being put back into my place when I step out of line. It sounds weird, I know, but there's something about feeling dominated and then being made to obey that turns me on. I'm thirty-six now, but it's been there for as long as I can remember. Even before transition, deep down inside, this was always a part of me. But back then, I tried so hard to ignore it, hide it from myself. It scared the hell out of me, what does that say about who I am? When my boyfriend asked, something just snapped. The more we talked, the closer he got, and suddenly, this thing came pouring out. He was surprised at first, but then supportive. We agreed to try it, cautiously. The night we did it... It was wild. I wanted him to be in control, totally in charge of me like he owns me. There's no better feeling than when he calls me 'little one' or makes me kneel and ask permission for everything. The first time he gave me an order, I almost melted into a puddle on the floor. But then afterward, all this guilt hit me. What if it's wrong? Shouldn't there be some kind of warning sign flashing that what I want isn't normal? So here I am now, trying to understand my own desires and whether they're healthy or not. Am I okay with being someone who needs discipline in bed? Is this something we should continue exploring together? I need advice from others who might have been where I am.