Confessions of a Switching Soul

I'm a trans guy in my twenties who switches between playing little and caregiver. Lately, I've been feeling this pull towards being the little one more often. It started when an older woman approached me at a DDLG meetup. We clicked instantly, bonding over shared experiences and desires. She's taken care of me like a child since then, and there’s something so soothing about her authority in our dynamic. But it can be overwhelming too, I love being babied but also crave the control as caregiver sometimes. It's this constant tug-of-war inside me that I'm still figuring out.