so this happened

ok so i started playing around with ddlg stuff last month after a friend talked me into it. thought it would be like roleplaying but turned out to be more intense than that. ended up telling my partner we should do this and now im super conflicted about it all. feels kinda weird bc its not like anything ive done before, even if i knew i was into it on some level. dont know why im confessing this online, just needed someone else to hear me ramble i guess. anyway, its been a thing and its probably gonna stay that way but now im worried everyone will think im totally nuts or something.