A Secret from My Youthful Past

As a Mommy in my late 50s, I've lived many chapters of life and held many titles. Yet, there's one role that haunts me in the quiet hours, a fleeting moment from years past when I was young and reckless. I had this intense desire to feel youthful again, to embrace the carefree spirit of youth through an unconventional avenue. Back then, when I was in my early 30s, a time of life many think is stable, I found myself in a relationship with someone younger who craved a nurturing dynamic from an older woman like me. We engaged in playful mommy-daughter role-play, which included light discipline and age play that felt incredibly freeing yet also daunting. It opened doors to intimacy I never knew existed but had always secretly yearned for. Now, as the years have passed and my life has taken on new responsibilities and depths, I find myself reflecting more often on this period of exploration and wonder if it's common for others to look back with such intensity at these moments from their pasts? Is it normal to still feel a pull towards those experiences even decades later?