finally admitting it

so yeah i recently found out this weird thing about myself and its kind of messed me up but also like totally liberated me. i used to be a super traditional guy you know never even talked about kinks much with my partners because i thought it was wrong or something. but then one night at work in the hospital hallway i saw these two nurses having some serious make out session against the wall and the way they looked each other up and down like that was so hot man. i was like wow if im going to be this turned on by watching them maybe there’s more to me than i thought. after that i started noticing all these adult playfulness things around couples, the older lady boss flirting with her secretary in a totally professional way but you know just enough that it wasn’t really innocent anymore. then i read some stuff online and realized im into age gap dynamics kinda thing. its weird because it feels like this new secret side of me but also like ive always known inside somewhere. now when i go to work i keep an eye out for those kinds of interactions between nurses who are playing a power dynamic or something playful like that. my current partner is totally okay with anything and everything as long as we talk about it first which we do and its amazing. im finally owning this part of myself and feeling less confused about why watching the older women in charge but also caring for others turns me on so much. just had to get that out there because like, wow what a ride.