My First Time, My Mistake?

I've been single for about two months now after my long-term relationship ended. I'm trying to figure out what kink really speaks to me and stumbled upon DDLG one night while browsing online. The idea of being in a little space with someone who could take care of me and make decisions felt incredibly comforting, but also daunting. After some research, I found an experienced partner willing to guide me through this exploration. We set up everything meticulously, boundaries were clear, and consent was reaffirmed at every step. The first session was nerve-wracking yet exhilarating. I wore a simple nightgown and my hair was pulled into pigtails. There's something empowering in wearing childish clothes as an adult. We began with some light games and role-play, building trust and comfort. Afterward, we moved to the bedroom for physical exploration. The dominant partner took control in ways I never imagined possible while still maintaining a sense of security and reassurance. When it came to more explicit activities, my body responded unexpectedly, sensitive and eager. The detail-oriented nature of this experience left me feeling thoroughly pampered yet somehow reborn. Reflecting on it now, I'm not sure if I should be venturing further into DDLG or if what happened felt too real. Was it the right choice? Am I the asshole for finding so much comfort in being treated like a little one? Or is this just a natural phase of self-discovery and exploration after a breakup? I suppose this confession isn't looking for an answer but more to put my thoughts out there, letting them simmer without judgment. What does it mean when something feels both wrong and right at the same time?